Bittersweet

Before you have kids, no one really warns you about the need to really enjoy and soak in EVERY LITTLE THING because you never know when the last time you do something with them will truly be the last time. I experienced another "last time" this week. This time I knew it was coming and I prepared myself as best as I could. I have been feeding Paige and Logan both formula and breastmilk since they were about 6 or 7 days old. I had to start formula sooner than I had hoped to because of Logan's week long hospital stay back in October. Unfortunately, my supply has just continued to decrease as each month has gone by. With Logan and Paige now eating 6-8 ounces every bottle I knew that it was time for me to say goodbye to pumping. I feel like I gave them all that I could...literally. The girls just flat out do not work anymore. :-( So, I decided to nurse Logan just one last time Wednesday night (Paige won't have anything to do with nursing anymore) and I just sat there and soaked in the moment with him. A moment that I will probably never experience again. It was very emotional for me. I still remember the first time I nursed each of them the night they were born. It was such a special bonding time with them and I will always treasure those quiet moments that we had together just the two of us.

I know that I did the best I could and I'm very happy that I was able to give them at least some breastmilk for the first 5 1/2 months of their lives. Soon they will be eating solids and before I know it they'll be holding their own bottles and not needing me quite as much as they do now.

To all my mommy-to-be friends: Enjoy the rest of your pregnancy. Soak in every little punch, kick, hiccup and jab to the ribs! You will miss those things once your baby is here in your arms. Take the time to really be in the moment with your child. Even if it's 3:00 in the morning and you are SO exhausted try to just enjoy that time with your little one. Those sweet, quiet moments will be gone before you know it.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Ready for night night

Aren't these precious onesies just perfect!? They say "mommy's answered prayers" and "daddy's answered prayers".

5 months

Five months already??? These babies seriously need to slow down! They just keep getting cuter and more fun as the months go by! Their little personalities just keep blossoming and they are so much fun.

Logan~ You are such a silly, little man! You love to giggle and it melts mommy's heart! You giggle now whenever we pull your shirts or onesies over your head. It is so cute! You adore your sister and just smile so big whenever you see her. You're still wearing size two diapers and justthis week started wearing size three diapers for extra protection overnight. You wear 3-6 clothes and some 6 month clothes, depending on the brand. You are such a chunky monkey! You are SO close to rolling over from your back to your tummy. You are so ready to move. You just wiggle all the time. I have a feeling you're going to be crawling before we know it! You are just so sweet and we love you SO much!

Paige~ You are such a happy, smiley little girl! Your smile is so sweet and it just warms mommy's heart! You love to just talk and talk. You have a lot to say! You immediately start smiling whenever mommy sings "The Wheels on the Bus" or "This Little Light of Mine". It's so sweet! You absolutely adore your brother and you smile so big whenever you see him. You're still wearing size two diapers and just this week started wearing size three diapers for extra protection overnight. You're wearing 3-6 month clothes and some 6 month clothes, depending on the brand. You are so petite compared to your brother. You're such a precious, sweet girl and we love you SO much!

(Please excuse Paige's Rambo look. Her headband slipped down right before I took the picture)

What we've been up to...

I can't believe how much Logan and Paige change every day! They are doing so many cute and funny things, so I thought I would take a moment to write them down so I won't forget later. I swear pregnancy and being a mommy have totally killed my short-term memory!

Miss Paige has FINALLY gotten over her tummy problems!! Thank you, God! Bless her heart, she had horrible gas up until about 2-3 weeks ago. She has been SO much happier and just smiles all the time now. She just loves to talk and talk. She also LOVES her brother! Any time she sees Logan she gets a huge grin on her face. She loves to just jibber jabber to him too. They have already started communicating with each other. It's so cute to watch them! Paige is currently on her second round of a bad diaper rash. Poor girl. :-( She loves it when we blow dry her tushy with the hairdryer, though. Paige and Logan both love when I sing "The Wheels on the Bus" and "This Little Light of Mine". They will smile and giggle instantly when I sing these two songs to them. I love it! They also love to be read to and that makes mommy really happy. :-)

Logan will now giggle when you pull shirts over his head to dress him. It is so stinkin' cute! He is just all smiles and giggles most of the time. He is such a silly, little man. He loves his sister too. He smiles whenever he sees her and he likes to try to eat her arm or suck on her hand. Sometimes she lets him and sometimes she doesn't. :-) He HATES the flash on the camera. He will squint and make these really funny, awkward faces everytime. Logan has the cutest bed hair every morning. It cracks me up! They have both been tolerating the rice cereal pretty well. They don't love it but they don't seem to dislike it either.

I can't believe my babies will be 5 months old tomorrow! Here are some pictures from them eating rice cereal for the first time and a few other miscellaneous photos.

Logan trying cereal for the first time!

Paige trying cereal for the first time!

Holding hands!

Our little family!

Tummy time

Love those cheeks!

The phone call that changed our lives!

This time last year we received the phone call that would change our lives! Our IVF nurse called to tell us that my beta test from that morning was positive and I was PREGNANT!!! I can still remember the immediate and overwhelming sense of joy that came over me when she said those words. I remember yelling to Chris across the house "Chris, we're pregnant!" It was such an awesome day and we had SO much fun calling our family and friends to tell them the good news.

I'm still in awe at the amazing blessings that God has given us over the last year. I can't believe our little miracle babies are now 4 1/2 months old! We had no idea that day that God had blessed us with not one, but TWO miracles! We had hoped and prayed for two, but we wouldn't find out for another two weeks that we were pregnant with twins. I can absolutely say that this past year since we got that phone call has been the BEST year (even through the hard times that we had with Logan and his heart).

Thank you, God, for these precious babies and thank you for blessing us more than we deserve!