Update on Logan

As you know, our little Logan got to come home from the hospital last Monday afternoon. We are so happy to have our little man home again! I'm going to ask all of you to keep praying for Logan. We found out on Wednesday that something is wrong with his heart. We had to go back to Tex.as Child.ren's for an EKG and an echocardiogram. The EKG looked good, but the echo showed that something had not formed properly with the heart muscle in his left ventricle. The specialist that we saw specializes in arrhythmias and not cardiomyopathy, so her best guess is that he has something called non-compaction of the left ventricle. This is apparently a very complex condition and very complicated to diagnose. We have been referred to another cardiologist who specializes in cardiomyopathy. Unfortunately, we won't be able to see her for two weeks. We have NO idea how minor or serious the problem is or if this is even what he has. Please pray that if there is something wrong that it is very minor.

I cannot even begin to describe how hard all of this has been. There is nothing more heartbreaking than knowing that something is wrong with your child and not being able to do anything for them. I HATE the waiting game. I want his appointment to be tomorrow. I want them to tell us that they made a mistake and there is absolutely nothing wrong with his heart. I hate that I am now starting to experience some depression from all of this. I just want to enjoy our new little family and not have to feel this way. I wish there was a magic button I could push that would snap me out of it. I want to hold Logan and cry tears of joy instead of tears of sadness at the thoughts of what might be in his future with this heart issue. I am SO incredibly grateful for these precious babies. Is it too much to ask for them to be healthy, though? What parent doesn't want that for their children?

I'll leave you on a happy note. Here is a picture of Logan and Paige on their first Halloween. :-)

Logan & Paige

Here's a pic we took today of Logan & Paige! Until I have time to properly update this will have to do! :-)

Logan is coming home!!!

Thank you again to everyone for all of the thoughts and prayers for our little man. He's coming home today!!!! We're so excited that our little family will be back together again! Logan is doing really well. He looks SO much better than he did last Monday. All of his tests have come back negative, so he either did pick up some sort of virus that wasn't detected or it was just due to him being premature and under 5 lbs. Thankfully if it was a virus of some sort it would have run it's course by now and he was on three different antibiotics last week to knock out anything bacterial that might have been going on.

This past week has absolutely been one of the hardest weeks of my life. On top of Logan being in the hospital, Chris came down with strep throat Friday evening. Superb! He is much better now thanks to the high-powered antibiotics they gave him and it looks as though Paige and I have managed to escape the germs. My emotions were all over the place last week. Many times I found myself wanting to curl up in a ball somewhere and hide until this was all over. All our prayers were answered, though. God pulled Chris and I through and our little guy is better and coming home. I'm going to try my best to keep up with blogging now that our whole family will be home. Hopefully once I get into a routine I'll be able to squeeze in a few minutes to post pics and update everyone. We'll see how that goes!

Update on Logan

Thank you so much for all of your thoughts and prayers! Keep them coming! Thankfully Logan had a much better day yesterday. He was taken off of the CPAP machine yesterday morning and they took him off the warmer yesterday afternoon. He started bottle feeds yesterday and we got to hold him and feed him last night! I can't even tell you how amazing it was to get to hold our little man. He was so sick on Monday and going downhill quickly. It's amazing how much can change in less than 24 hours. When we left last night everything was still going well. They're going to bump his feeding amount up today and we should have the final results back from the blood cultures today. As I was told by several people, no news is good news at TCH. So, we're hoping that this was just an episode of him dropping his temp because he is so little and still premature. It's definitely scary that this can happen, but it could be so much worse too. We're hoping for another encouraging day for him today. I'll keep you updated.

Prayers Please!!!

Please pray for our sweet boy, Logan. He was admitted to the Level III NICU at Texas Chil.dren's Hosp.ital yesterday for hypothermia. He was put under a warmer and also put on a CPAP machine because he was having apnea episodes. He was very lethargic yesterday and did not want to wake up for his early morning feedings. He is stable and they are running every test known to man to try and figure out what's going on. The main thing they are looking at is infection. Thankfully, he is keeping his body temp up while in his heated bed and his heart rate was good overnight. He has not required any oxygen at any time but the CPAP is helping him to not have to work as hard to breathe. He also has a feeding tube now, but they have not started feeding him through it yet. We're hoping they will start feeding him this morning.

Please pray that the doctors are able to determine exactly what is going on with him and that it is just something very minor. Please also pray for Chris and me as we try to split our time with Logan and with our sweet girl, Paige. I'll update as we know more.

Happy Birthday!

They're here!!!! Our precious, miracle babies were born on Tuesday, October 12, 2010 at 35 weeks 6 days. Logan Michael was 4 lbs 13 oz and 17 1/2 inches long. Paige Elise was 5 lbs 1.8 oz and 17 1/2 inches long. They were delivered via c-section at 4:25 pm (Logan) and at 4:26 pm (Paige). We are all doing great and we were released from the hospital this afternoon. I will post a more detailed birth story soon, but for now here are some pictures of our sweet little babies! I could just eat them they are SO cute!!!

Paige on the left, Logan on the right

35 Week Update

I'm 35 weeks today! Woohoo! The crazy thing is...this might be my last weekly pregnancy update. Yikes! Yes, you read that right. Here's what's going on. I went to lunch with a sweet friend yesterday and while we were there I started feeling really crampy and it moved around to my lower back. When I got in my car to leave I started feeling some pressure in my bottom like I needed to go to the bathroom, but I didn't need to go. This concerned me so I decided to call my OB's office since I was literally right around the corner from my OB and the hospital. The nurse told me to come right in and then about 2 minutes later she called me back and said that the doctor on call said to go straight to labor and delivery. This is when I started to get more concerned. I didn't feel like I was going into labor but I just had a feeling that things might be headed in that direction sometime soon. I got to the hospital and was admitted to an antepartum room where they hooked me up to monitors for the babies and my contractions. I was having patterns of contractions and uterine irritability and then contractions again and then more irritability. Thankfully this pattern did not cause my cervix to start dilating more. They called my OB and she did decide to put me on Breth.ine to stop the contractions. Thankfully this worked. They also put in an IV to give me some fluids just in case I was dehydrated and hadn't realized it. I was at the hospital on the monitors for about 6 hours before they let me go home. Thankfully the babies were doing great!

I had my weekly appointment with my OB already scheduled for this afternoon. I had a feeling that she would tell us we wouldn't make it to Oct. 25th, but we had no idea that she would tell us we maybe had a week at this point. What?! We couldn't believe it! I thought Chris was going to pass out! Poor guy. She checked my cervix and I'm about 1/2 cm-1 cm dilated right now, but the babies have dropped and the extra pressure is causing my cervix to really thin out. Dr. M said that she really hopes we can squeeze in another week, but that she feels completely confident with the babies coming now if I do go into labor before next week. I'll still have a c-section to deliver the babies but at this point we no longer have a scheduled date. Dr. M wants to wait until my appointment on Tuesday morning to see if things have progressed and then she'll decide where to go from there.

I honestly don't know how I feel about all of this. Of course I'm super excited to meet these little ones, but at the same time I want them to keep baking a little longer. I told Chris this weekend that I didn't think my body was going to hold out for 3 more weeks and I noticed that the babies had dropped. I just didn't think that they could potentially be here in less than one week. I really feel like we're as ready as we possibly can be. The bags are packed and ready to go, the nursery is ready for them and I think we pretty much have everything we need. I'm sure once they're home we'll find things that we need and hadn't purchased yet or even thought of, but that seems pretty unavoidable to me for first time parents.

I'll try to post an updated picture tomorrow. Please keep these babies in your prayers. Please pray that they continue to put on weight and that their lungs are ready for the outside world. It's all in God's hands. It has been this whole time. We just have to sit back and wait for Him to reveal His perfect timing for meeting our precious miracles and continue to praise Him for all the blessings He's given us. I have LOVED every minute of this pregnancy and I will continue to soak up every minute that I have left.

(Linds- I'm so glad I got to spend my last outing hanging out and catching up with you!)